Changes

I have, for the past 3 weeks, been moving. This has been very hard for me, because I really, and I mean really, don't like change. Change is hard for all of us, but for some it's particularly difficult.

Why is that? Why are some of us like Gumby, able to bend into impossible positions, and some aren't? Why do some of us take to change easily, and why am I not one of them? Also, how does this relate to being a Doula?

Wait for it, it's coming....

Being a Doula is all about change. Being pregnant and giving birth is all about change. Our bodies change, our spirits change, our lives change. Whether it's the first child, or the fifth, our families change.

We, as women, are constantly changing. The entire cycle of our lives is about change. Our bodies, because of the ebb and flow of hormones, are constant agents of change in this world. We go in and out like the tides, never the same from one moment to the next. It's part of who we are, and what we must be to create new life. We have to be ready to change in order to be ready to receive what comes.

It's the one thing about us that drives the men in our lives crazy, isn't it?? This unrelenting change that goes on within us. It only stands to reason that our internal changes manifest on the outside as well. No matter how it hurts, or how much havoc it causes, this is who we are and what we must be.

What it boils down to is that I have to embrace the changes in my life. One reason I have such difficulty accepting change in my life may be that there are so many internal changes, and I need control of the external to feel comfortable with the internal. Maybe, though, I just hate the disorder that change brings.